can't

iora really cant handle me being like this.i tried to barely show it and still she was down.i need her support to help me out of this, but i dont think ill get support from her. i need to find support from other people and i hope tomorrow i will be able to tell mia how i feel. and to think this friday will be me and iora's 9th month together. i wonder how long we will last? because this month has been the worst month so far and i dont know how much more she can be with me