birthday again

tomorrow will be my birthday, but i believe it will be as hell as it is like the past years. parents not understanding what i wanted, no gifts that actually mean something. family does what they want and nothing i'd want. always the same my birthday as become. when will my parents understand that i want to do what i want for once in my birthday.
2 years ago i went to the philippines during the summer. i had to spend my birthday there and we barely did anything on that day. no gifts either. and when i finally got a gift you know what it was? just some card that cost 15$. i mean what kind of gift was that? my 2 other brothers get much better gifts then i do and they get to do what they want on their birthdays. how unfair it is for me. they even get to do what they want. i didnt even want to to go pi and yet i had to. they said they'd celebrate my birthday but it didnt even feel like a celebration
last year i went offisland again to japan this time. same damn thing. all we did was go around and i didnt even get to do what i want. and you know i got a gift of money from my parents. oh you'd think at least i got money but guess what? both my brothers got the same amount, i even graduated last year and all i get is the same amount? they wont even understand how much they put me down. no celebration, nothing i wanted to do
yea i sound selfish. but havent i done enough for them to have a birthday i like? i mean i do most of the chores help them when they need it. hell i dont even hear them calling my other brothers to help them. its always me me me. they tell me to do the simplest task that they are so close to do to tell me to do it. hell my brothers are closer and could do it faster but yet the call me. am i some sort of tool to them? they say they love me but maybe they just love using me like a tool. they say to get good grades and get mad if i dont. but do they know how i feel about how hard it is to get the grade? they say the favor me over the other brothers, but maybe just because im always doing the work. they dont know how much they hurt me inside