9th month

worst monthsarry ever. i tried to make it a great day for her, but in the end it all broke down. we are probably gonna break up soon for not understanding. it seems like she's only thinking of herself still always saying things that she feels. she doesnt even ask how i feel or try to help me! when im so down she gives up and doesnt even help. when she's down i try so hard to help her. she's given up on me but im not surprised. she gives too easily. i wish that she will try to help me and not jus herself! can she even think of others than herself? i mean come on, i tried my best to make this day great, and yet all i get are stupid remarks of how much pain she is in from seeing me like this. how can she be in pain and not do anything? im tired of helping her. everyday of this week i cant show my pain without her not understanding. if im out of her life will she then finally understand? and for some reason now matter how much pain this is, no tears fall of my eyes. why is that?