other self

today is the 1st to shed tears for her? now i know why i have a so called other self. to hide the pain, the sorrow the fury and all else. so know one will truely understand how much i love and care for my sisters. its always like this even if i didnt expect id feel the past from my closest sister. why? all i can do is watch like before, and i will not say what i feel because no matter what my past will always repeat tell or not repeat again and again