why today

i cant tell mia how i feel because i dont want to get in the way of her life. i love her alot almost as much as my other 3 sisters and they really mean alot to me. i wish she'd know how i really feel and that we can get close so i can help her when i can. i really want to be there for her but i dont think i ever will. i dont want her to get hurt either. my big sis told me that who mia is with broke some other friends of hers hearts and i dont want mia to feel that. and sorry iora this is why i changed so much. i didnt want to tell you because you'd be more mad. and i dont want to hurt you anymore. even if you pretend your not hurt i know you are. my eyes see through alot of things